Tuesday, December 14, 2010

The Black Sheep Felt Left Out?

The black sheep was never accepted by the other sheep. Always different and not included. That sheep must have been pretty lonely everyday. Why does being left out make the walls around me smaller? Why can't I ever fit in with the people I'm most comfortable with? Always watching and observing others in their own little world of happiness, but never the one who gets to join in. Acceptance. Happiness. Involved. Why do those words sound unfamiliar to me? I wonder sometimes.......How everything and everyone would move forward without me. Being behind the glass where no one would notice me and just keep moving on. What would it be like if I wasn't welcomed into this world? Maybe things wouldn't change if I weren't alive.




Thursday, December 9, 2010

Remembering The Past Is Painful, Isn't It?

Why can't all good memories be remembered for the happiness instead of the pain? The past hits me like a thousand buses and I suddenly remember all the times when I was happy and just didn't care about anything....But along with the past, comes the realization that I'll never get to experience those kind of "good memories" ever again. Sometimes, I wish I can disappear along with the past and just do nothing or just to be forgotten. What happened to that girl who could just move on with life without taking a step back and just be happy that the future is on its way? Why can't good memories just stay as good memories? Remembering hurts more than moving forward.